Sorry want dit kan respectloos bleken maar het is niet de vriend van en vriend dat heeft hulp & advies nodig woont in Nederlands maar ik weet alleen klein beetje Nederlands dus ik kan maar alleen in Engels schrijven om hulp & advies vragen voor haar van mensen die wonen in het dezelfd land want de system in NL is niet gewoon. & dank u wel voor jullie verstanding;
Dus here we go in English & sorry for the long post!!
AFOAF used to be a very sick lil girl she started with cough syrup at 8 years old sure not to get high just to sleep.
That same girl was morbid obese since 10 years old & since then she was always unhappy!!
It took 8 years @ 18 years old & 2 suicidal attempts to be given green light to have the ring surgery to lose weight.
she did & it worked but she was already deep into addiction with any pills she would lay her hands on!!
Her parents are in medical field.
Then she left to Europe & there she wS introduced to uppers & pot & she loved it!! She finally felt pretty attractive & happy but it was not real. She finished studying even though she was in a way or another always high but it made her strong invincible she was an A student & no one would doubt anything.
She continued this way even while working & having a huge responsible position & she even got married with her bf of several years who was in deeper shit than her & less functional but she was so convinced she would motivate him but eventually she did not & both got deep in snorting Dope ( bruin)
but it never made her dysfunctional so she was never scared she was generating enough but in order to keep affording the growing by the day bad habit she had to work more & to travel on business trips & as an H addict it was impossible.
but she did it & managed to attend seminars while withdrawing but she was prepared with a big mix of legal substitutes & it worked but the minute she gets back home the cycle starts again!!
She couldn't bear it anymore!
she was the only provider while her hubby was high on the couch all day long her ovulation stopped her body blocked it was a nightmare so she decided it's time to stop & applied for a big awesome position In Dubai ( a place where noway She would risk it with drugs unless She was the daughter of an Emir) & that was not the case.
Then she was accepted & gave him an ultimatum either he comes with her or stays with his dope back home & this is what he did & she gave him her car & left!! She kept supporting his habit while working & seeing a shrink for her PAWS that lasted months!!!
But then they got divorced & she was not supporting him anymore she would just help him in his really bad lack of cash days & send him some cash every now & then while she was put by her shrink on Valium Effexor & some type of lithium then she had a car accident & she was put on Tramadol!!
& the cycle started again!!
She met a lovely man & she had warned him that she was bad news & that she already fucked the Life of her ex & that she was an addict by nature!!
He thought she was exaggerating for him having to take few pills a day did not mean addiction!! & she loved him & saw her salvation & got pregnant so she stopped Everything!!
of course not over night but in less than 3 weeks after the test showed pregnancy she was clean!!
It wAs hard but it worked & she was not happy but she had hope growing by the day like the lil bundle of joy inside of her & that was not her first baby!! No life has done so much to her it had broken her a lot & a lot she was born and grew in a war with all her health & obesity & then the accident & then she was raped & had to have an abortion but all that was in the past... the lil jelly bean growing in her womb gave her the chance to start again all fresh!! Even the birth day were due to complications she had a C section but did not accept even to take post surgery pain killers the motherhood hormones in her were so strong & all went ok & she for once felt content & happy naturally but also very anxious All the Time!! Then breast feeding stopped by itself after 5 months & here it's like everything inside of her went upside down!!
She was diagnosed with post partum depression & put on a cocktail again!!
Then less than a month she starts having so much pain in her tummy took an X-Ray & found the stomach ring she put almost 10 years ago moved due to pregnancy & had to get out on the spot!! & again she went into another surgery & nothing worked on her pain but Tramadol.
She had till today almost 5 surgeries!!
& from there she got hooked again from 100mg per day she reached 500 mg!!
by then her husband who is originally Dutch was offered a Job in the Netherlands so they moved to NL & she was still hooked.
Then they discovered that her baby had a delay in speech & maybe she is on the Autism spectrum & this killed her & she jumped from10 mg of diazepam per day & 500 mg tramadol to 15mg diazepam & 1200 mg Tramadol!!!
& now She stopped but it ain't easy!! & She has no one that She can share this with who won't judge!!
so I'm here to look for the support & help of others for her!!
especially people in Netherlands since She has also no friends or family or any support here & that makes it even harder!!
She is going through Acute & PAWS all @ same time she has Post traumatic stress disorder & she is so unhappy & sad & feels like a failure because her child needs a happy mother!!
ALS Iemand kan dit vriend van en vriend hulpen please Do!!
Thanks & dank u wel!!
Dus here we go in English & sorry for the long post!!
AFOAF used to be a very sick lil girl she started with cough syrup at 8 years old sure not to get high just to sleep.
That same girl was morbid obese since 10 years old & since then she was always unhappy!!
It took 8 years @ 18 years old & 2 suicidal attempts to be given green light to have the ring surgery to lose weight.
she did & it worked but she was already deep into addiction with any pills she would lay her hands on!!
Her parents are in medical field.
Then she left to Europe & there she wS introduced to uppers & pot & she loved it!! She finally felt pretty attractive & happy but it was not real. She finished studying even though she was in a way or another always high but it made her strong invincible she was an A student & no one would doubt anything.
She continued this way even while working & having a huge responsible position & she even got married with her bf of several years who was in deeper shit than her & less functional but she was so convinced she would motivate him but eventually she did not & both got deep in snorting Dope ( bruin)
but it never made her dysfunctional so she was never scared she was generating enough but in order to keep affording the growing by the day bad habit she had to work more & to travel on business trips & as an H addict it was impossible.
but she did it & managed to attend seminars while withdrawing but she was prepared with a big mix of legal substitutes & it worked but the minute she gets back home the cycle starts again!!
She couldn't bear it anymore!
she was the only provider while her hubby was high on the couch all day long her ovulation stopped her body blocked it was a nightmare so she decided it's time to stop & applied for a big awesome position In Dubai ( a place where noway She would risk it with drugs unless She was the daughter of an Emir) & that was not the case.
Then she was accepted & gave him an ultimatum either he comes with her or stays with his dope back home & this is what he did & she gave him her car & left!! She kept supporting his habit while working & seeing a shrink for her PAWS that lasted months!!!
But then they got divorced & she was not supporting him anymore she would just help him in his really bad lack of cash days & send him some cash every now & then while she was put by her shrink on Valium Effexor & some type of lithium then she had a car accident & she was put on Tramadol!!
& the cycle started again!!
She met a lovely man & she had warned him that she was bad news & that she already fucked the Life of her ex & that she was an addict by nature!!
He thought she was exaggerating for him having to take few pills a day did not mean addiction!! & she loved him & saw her salvation & got pregnant so she stopped Everything!!
of course not over night but in less than 3 weeks after the test showed pregnancy she was clean!!
It wAs hard but it worked & she was not happy but she had hope growing by the day like the lil bundle of joy inside of her & that was not her first baby!! No life has done so much to her it had broken her a lot & a lot she was born and grew in a war with all her health & obesity & then the accident & then she was raped & had to have an abortion but all that was in the past... the lil jelly bean growing in her womb gave her the chance to start again all fresh!! Even the birth day were due to complications she had a C section but did not accept even to take post surgery pain killers the motherhood hormones in her were so strong & all went ok & she for once felt content & happy naturally but also very anxious All the Time!! Then breast feeding stopped by itself after 5 months & here it's like everything inside of her went upside down!!
She was diagnosed with post partum depression & put on a cocktail again!!
Then less than a month she starts having so much pain in her tummy took an X-Ray & found the stomach ring she put almost 10 years ago moved due to pregnancy & had to get out on the spot!! & again she went into another surgery & nothing worked on her pain but Tramadol.
She had till today almost 5 surgeries!!
& from there she got hooked again from 100mg per day she reached 500 mg!!
by then her husband who is originally Dutch was offered a Job in the Netherlands so they moved to NL & she was still hooked.
Then they discovered that her baby had a delay in speech & maybe she is on the Autism spectrum & this killed her & she jumped from10 mg of diazepam per day & 500 mg tramadol to 15mg diazepam & 1200 mg Tramadol!!!
& now She stopped but it ain't easy!! & She has no one that She can share this with who won't judge!!
so I'm here to look for the support & help of others for her!!
especially people in Netherlands since She has also no friends or family or any support here & that makes it even harder!!
She is going through Acute & PAWS all @ same time she has Post traumatic stress disorder & she is so unhappy & sad & feels like a failure because her child needs a happy mother!!
ALS Iemand kan dit vriend van en vriend hulpen please Do!!
Thanks & dank u wel!!
